Heartbroken
I remember when my heart broke and when i gave up on loving you. I remeber when i screamed i hated you but deep inside i love you. NO one knows the pain i went through. what you put me through. You made me leave.. I loved you so much and all you did was turn your back on me and left me.. you choose all those other girls instead of me… i didnt even want to believe that you could do that to me … i cannot believe you would even think to hurt me like that.. this is exactly why i cannot trust anyone aymore.. my number one fear now is that the next guy who comes in will try to take care of me and be there for me.. but in reality the only thing i can think of is that he will leave me just like you for all the other girls. i dont deserve to have been treated like that and i dont know why i stuck around for so long when all you were doing behind my back was talking to other girls and lying to me.. you would never make time for me and always blow me off. dont get me wrong i miss your calls at night and hearing your voice say my name. i did love you and love is a strong word.. but you ruined it for me i thought we had something speical. but in your eyes i was just another girl who you could play… and treat like shit and rip her heart out of her and through it on the ground and stomp all over it. ii cried every night because all i wanted was to be with you.. and now i have a guy that wants to treat me right and take care of me and is such a gentleman.. but i cannot trust him like i want to i cant give him my all because the last time i gave someone my all i was turned down and given the cold shoulder.. so please guys next time you think of playing and girl and think its cool to do remember the long lasting effects it will have on a girl for the next guy.. remember if you wouldnt like it done to you dont do it.. heart breaks hurt like no other..
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